Although I’ve left Christianity, I find the ethos of service one of the easiest pieces to hold onto. When I serve others, I feel closer, not just to them, but to the Divine. In BDSM and in sex work, I find the same value of service. … More My Story: Coming Out a Sex Worker
How reading When God Was a Woman changed my faith. … More My Story: No Longer a Christian
In the last post, I explained how lonely and afraid I felt in grad school. Afraid I wasn’t worthy of a satisfying relationship and afraid I wasn’t going to be able to take care of myself after graduating. I binge dated as a way to ease the loneliness and find someone to believe in me. … More My Story — Part Seven: Coming Out a Buddhist Christian
Through most of my life I’ve been plagued by loneliness. Few memories of college and my mid-twenties are as vivid for me as lying in bed alone. The physical empty space around my body, the heavy silence, and the internal dread I felt, night after night, wondering how many years might go by before someone … More What Buddhism Taught Me About Loneliness
This morning, trying to find my car, I couldn’t outrun my thoughts. Instead, attacking me like mosquitos were two questions and a statement: Have I become too unique to find a life partner? Am I not good enough? I don’t believe he exists. … More My Story – Part Six: Coming Out Poly, Queer and Kinky
Throughout the summer, I’ll be posting how I learned to be the most authentic version of me while holding onto my Christian faith. Six posts: how I came out as queer, polyamorous, and kinky. I started with Part One: Coming Out Queer. I suggest you read that first. When I embraced my sexual side: with … More My Story – Part Five: Coming Out Poly, Queer and Kinky
Throughout the summer, I’ll be posting how I learned to be the most authentic version of me while holding onto my Christian faith. Six posts: how I came out as queer, polyamorous, and kinky. I started with Part One: Coming Out Queer. I suggest you read that first. I met David shortly before my 27th birthday. … More My Story – Part Four: Coming Out Poly, Queer and Kinky
In order for me to be ready for something as “alternative” as polyamory, I had to shed the notion that God created all people to live the same story. And when I met a woman who introduced me to the idea of polyamory, all of a sudden there were new options in my mind about what could make me happy. … More My Story – Part Three: Coming Out Poly
Throughout the summer, I’ll be posting how I learned to be the most authentic version of me while holding onto my Christian faith. Six posts: how I came out as queer, polyamorous, and kinky. I started with Part One: Coming Out Queer. I suggest you read that first. I’ve always struggled with intense loneliness. Neither … More My Story – Part Two: Coming Out Poly
There was always talk of the mystery of God, but also an undercurrent of belief that if we studied and prayed hard enough, we’d find the truth—we’d understand the correct ways to pray, how to think about money, and how to love each other. … More My Story – Part One: Coming Out Queer
Church of the Scarlet Letter 